She's Gone

She's gone. She lost herself to the things that hurt her. To only find herself in the same place, she thought that would heal her. She's gone. She found herself in the only place she knew how to find her broken soul. She lost herself to the idea of who she needed to be loved…

Nothing Is forever

Who are we as people? Our minds so fed with the idea of needing and wanting to fit into this thing called life we get lost in the trap of the ego. Have fun while it is last because being forever isn't a thing. Nothing will be here when all said is done. Separated from…

Cancer Free Five years

The journey for me started a little over five years ago. Finding balance in all of this has been hard. Today I felt happy, alone, but happy. I reached the peak of cancer five fucken years clean. That is my biggest accomplishment in life. Also, my biggest blessing was cancer; Cancer is the teacher. It…

Patterns

Every year it's the same pattern. Broken promises lead up to new to year resolution. Don't wait for the year to end to make changes in your life. This thing called time is just another way of blocking us out into not seeing what life is all about. We dismiss people in our lives, thinking…

The Missing Piece

The feeling wasn't there today. Writing for me is when I am at my purest. I can think about the words and the feelings and allow them to become something other than just built-up emotions that are trapped. I went into my scan today, and it was my fifth-year scan. Felt completely different didn't feel…

The truth about surviving Cancer

The truth about surviving brain cancer, you don't die, but everything around you does. The feeling of trying to understand this thing has left in a dark place. Everything has been moving fast, and I need to slow down before I lose a sense of what is happening around me. Family is getting older, mom…