The journey for me started a little over five years ago.

Finding balance in all of this has been hard.

Today I felt happy, alone, but happy. I reached the peak of cancer five fucken years clean. That is my biggest accomplishment in life. Also, my biggest blessing was cancer; Cancer is the teacher. It allows you to see past the bullshit we face as people. It shows a world that many fear. Many also forget what it was like going through the struggle; they allow other minor problems to overtake the most significant challenge we once faced.

Life keeps going; in a way, life doesn’t care for you; it cares about how you overcome obstacles.

We go through a lot to remain where we are most times. I say this a lot – note to self.

I am learning how to be alone, being alone is both a blessing and a curse because at times I do want to hold another human, but also at times, I want to hold myself.

Finding balance has always been a challenge for me. I tend to stay away from crowds; I’ll get lost in the noise. I also get lost in my pitty. Knowing that one day I will reface what I faced makes me not care, seeing both a meaningful and meaningless life finding that balance has also been a conflict.

I am cancer free now five years, and the feeling changes\

Life is a game of balance, finding what you need at the moment to get you past bullshit we all go through. Ego minded people, feed the narrative, you and I are not that special in a world full of extraordinary and talented people. We are all one at the end of the day, learn how to love others, and love yourself for us to grow as people.

One thought on “Cancer Free Five years

  1. Keep it up brother! You are strong and it won’t take you down and I definitely know how you feel about being alone and how it can be a curse and a blessing. 2019 i stood to myself and never really talked to anyone but This year is different I’m trying my best to be more social and it’s been going great.

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