The truth about surviving brain cancer, you don’t die, but everything around you does.

The feeling of trying to understand this thing has left in a dark place. Everything has been moving fast, and I need to slow down before I lose a sense of what is happening around me.

Family is getting older, mom and dad won’t be here much longer, and here I am still trying to find out who I am. People walk in and out of my life like it’s a drug clinic giving out free methadone. They are only coming for the fix. They took from me a lot, and I gave a lot.

The one person I loved walked away from me, can’t blame her, though. She is a bright light. She got tired of waiting for things to happen. She held her own while I was still breaking and fixing pieces of me that I didn’t understand. She will probably say that this is an excuse; maybe she is right; it is an excuse of perhaps I just needed someone to love me a little harder.

Been shut down before that never stops me, I learn how to adapt and move past it; Nothing should be able to hurt me more than cancer. That should’ve been my biggest challenge in life.

People change, that is human nature. We are all subjects to our environment. We become what we chase after, empty sex, fast money, self-centered hearts.

( Note to self) wake up before it’s too late and you lose a sense of who you are.

Follow your path and allow others to follow their own. People are just people. Stop trying to hold anyone higher or lower than who you are.

It’s honestly funny seeing reality for what it is. It’s all a status game at the end of the day we forget what is essential in the end-all. It’s surrounding yourself with people who get you, and you get them, it’s having those deep conversation questioning what life is, and why we think the way we think. Not everyone is in it deep because they allowed the experience to show them another version of themselves, a mindless version, an egotistical version, a self-centered heart version.

6 thoughts on “The truth about surviving Cancer

  1. Im working with a person, surviving cancer. Your words echo her words. Like a mirror, your words illuminate both of you clearly. Glad to have found your blog and you found strength to put words to emotions. Deeply felt.

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  2. Everything about this was perfect. There’s so much I can relate to and I just have to say this has helped me release some emotions that I have kept in for a while.

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  3. Deep! It wasn’t easy what you went through, but you fought cancer and luckily you had someone who loved you dearly by your side at the time. It’s true, humans do change. I’ve been following you and I’ve seen growth. You are doing so good! Keep it up, you’re going to make it one day. Good luck!

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