Finding yourself.

Life. We all have it some of us struggle with the meaning of it. We are all different, and in being different, we sometimes fall short of becoming something more then what we are. She will never stop loving you as long as you are here right now reading this. In the words of Alan…

Unbalanced world

Who I was trying to heal isn't who I am healed. I've learned a lot in the past couple of years. I've learned that you never change people, you change yourself since you're all you got. Looking back at the who I though I was and who I am today life moves fast. Life to…

Empathy > Sympathy

Empathy: the ability to understand and share the feelings of another. Sympathy: feelings of pity and sorrow for someone else's misfortune. pity: the feeling of sorrow and compassion caused by the suffering and misfortunes of others. sorrow: a feeling of deep distress caused by loss, disappointment, or other misfortune suffered by oneself or others. distress:…

Deep Rest

Depression: feelings of severe despondency and dejection. de·spond·en·cy: a state of low spirits caused by loss of hope or courage. Spirit: the nonphysical part of a person which is the seat of emotions and character; the soul. Learn where your energy goes, make sure that what you feel will always remain true to who you…

Four Years later a New outlook

We live in a world that is separated, divided, and, most importantly, depressed. Everyone is suffering from some sort of mental illness. Ever since I can remember, I have always been the outcast. There’s nothing wrong with being the outcast. During my darkest moments, only a few people shined while others simply pretended to be…

HEART AND BRAIN

Life. We all have it, we all experience it differently. I wanted to touch base on something that my experience taught me. The heart and brain will never be one. They are not friends and will never be friends. My heart is depressed and my brain is overloaded with information. Not all are equal, just…

Where did you go ?

Lost love.I went to the lost and found the other day looking for you. They said they never heard of you. They asked me if I could describe you.I drew blank. They asked me when was it that I last saw you.I drew blank.I left looking for you. Found that I was creating hate in…

Money or Laughter

You might think that you may know me based off of my old writing or my old pictures. Maybe you even think I have the world at my fingertips. Yes, I traveled the world with life after cancer, but is that happiness? Is happiness measured by material?

When heart and brain come to tranquility

When reality becomes fiction, the world starts to become a really scary place. I felt like the world doesn't care. I know I am a fuck up at times, but let me explain. For me to always say that death shouldn’t be feared doesn’t mean I’m not being empathetic with people - I just mean…

She's Gone

She's gone. She lost herself to the things that hurt her. To only find herself in the same place, she thought that would heal her. She's gone. She found herself in the only place she knew how to find her broken soul. She lost herself to the idea of who she needed to be loved…

Nothing Is forever

Who are we as people? Our minds so fed with the idea of needing and wanting to fit into this thing called life we get lost in the trap of the ego. Have fun while it is last because being forever isn't a thing. Nothing will be here when all said is done. Separated from…

Cancer Free Five years

The journey for me started a little over five years ago. Finding balance in all of this has been hard. Today I felt happy, alone, but happy. I reached the peak of cancer five fucken years clean. That is my biggest accomplishment in life. Also, my biggest blessing was cancer; Cancer is the teacher. It…

Patterns

Every year it's the same pattern. Broken promises lead up to new to year resolution. Don't wait for the year to end to make changes in your life. This thing called time is just another way of blocking us out into not seeing what life is all about. We dismiss people in our lives, thinking…

The Missing Piece

The feeling wasn't there today. Writing for me is when I am at my purest. I can think about the words and the feelings and allow them to become something other than just built-up emotions that are trapped. I went into my scan today, and it was my fifth-year scan. Felt completely different didn't feel…

The truth about surviving Cancer

The truth about surviving brain cancer, you don't die, but everything around you does. The feeling of trying to understand this thing has left in a dark place. Everything has been moving fast, and I need to slow down before I lose a sense of what is happening around me. Family is getting older, mom…